What did you do yesterday? Today? What will be done tomorrow? Millions of people don't know...what a sad world. There are millions out there, in fact, billions, that don't know where they came from, why they're here, and where they're going. Who will tell them? 50,000+ strong? There has to be more. . .
Yesterday we lived in bliss we didn't understand. Today we live in hell. Tomorrow we will reign in happiness. Fight the good fight. Keep your head held high. Suit up. Make sure your armor glistens in the sunlight and shines through the darkness. The night is drawing near. The war is almost over. The tired souls will keep fighting and marching on until He says it's over.
. . .but brothers and sisters. . .the night will get darker. The rain will fall harder. When the darkness shrouds us in her arms, will we have enough oil to keep the flame burning strong? Will the path remain lit? How will we see in the darkness of today?
Love your enemies and keep them close. They may be your friends and allies one day. They know where the lost ones hide. They can help bring them to the light.
Dust off your map and guidebook. Keep it by your side.
Don't worry about patching any knee holes in your pants. They're supposed to be there.
Pay any tolls that are due on the path of life. Give tribute to your King.
Tomorrow will be here soon. Peace will reign at last. Don't forget to believe. Faith has brought you here. Work so that faith can take you home.
Last of all, remember how it is done. Justice was not removed. Mercy isn't free. All laws were satisfied. The blood of The Risen will save those who were just, and those who were merciful. Don't forget this blood will bring life to all who die.
Life is not so easy to live. We are born and sent on our way. Don't forget your dreams and lose them along the paths of life. Remember who you are. Remember your divine heritage. This will get you through the sleepless nights. This will get you through the endless days. Each day is the same until tomorrow comes. Never back down. When the world shies away, stand strong and hold your head up high.
Listen. Listen to the wind, the water, the earth itself. Listen to those around you. Listen to God. Start now. Don't wait for another second to tick away. You will hear the creations of your maker. Your appreciation will grow, and you will remember where you want to be Tomorrow.
Never forget. Don't forget where you came from, why you're here, and where you're going. It is what makes our existence worth it! Live today and fight for tomorrow!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Swimming trunks
Scott and I had a good jam session today and even recorded a rough version of a song we're working on. After that I needed to go to walmart to buy some swim shorts. We browsed their selection and picked a pair that would look cool and stay on in the water. While standing in line I looked inside to make sure it had the mesh under garment that comes with the trunks. When I looked in, I noticed there was no support. What the heck!! Who makes trunks with mesh underwear but no support? That is just messed up. I had to put them back. Maybe one day I'll find what I need.
Monday, May 11, 2009
Becoming a girl
I sit here at my computer at a ridiculous hour of the evening (2:22 AM). I am listening to a song I wrote a long time ago for someone. Even though it didn't work out in the end and I'm over the relationship, I still sit here with a tear rolling out of my eye. Just one tear though. I ask myself why. I honestly don't think it has anything to do with any relationship(s) I've had. For some reason tears just come out of my eyes. I am not crying, nor do I feel sad. This is a stupid problem to have!
What the heck is wrong with me? I don't care about anything anymore. I tell myself I'm happy, but I wonder if I really am. Besides recent events in life that have caused my road to go a different route, I haven't really had any traumatizing event happen to me.
Now I'm listening to another song that gives me chills every time I hear it. It is one of mine, but it is completely different from other songs I have written. It portrays a message that we all feel in life at some point.
keep your head up now pretty girl
life it wasn't meant to make you cry
if the sky could only feel the hurt
stars would fall from heaven like the rain
now we can't seem to understand
how it could go so fast
and how our worlds could crash
Now we can't seem to understand
how our worlds could crash
keep your head up girl it goes so fast
sigh a deep sigh pretty girl
a roll of your eyes and then your fine
You love him but he's confused your world
Starve the truth and go and feed him lies
Why does life crash us into things and then rip us away from them just as quickly? Why do I even care? I feel loved. Even though my girlfriend had to leave, I hold no feelings of anger or resentment toward her anymore (nor did I really, sometimes frustration, but nothing more). I still think she is great and an awesome friend. I just wish someone could figure out what the heck is wrong with me. Maybe after my vacation to Disneyland I will feel better. Who knows.
What the heck is wrong with me? I don't care about anything anymore. I tell myself I'm happy, but I wonder if I really am. Besides recent events in life that have caused my road to go a different route, I haven't really had any traumatizing event happen to me.
Now I'm listening to another song that gives me chills every time I hear it. It is one of mine, but it is completely different from other songs I have written. It portrays a message that we all feel in life at some point.
keep your head up now pretty girl
life it wasn't meant to make you cry
if the sky could only feel the hurt
stars would fall from heaven like the rain
now we can't seem to understand
how it could go so fast
and how our worlds could crash
Now we can't seem to understand
how our worlds could crash
keep your head up girl it goes so fast
sigh a deep sigh pretty girl
a roll of your eyes and then your fine
You love him but he's confused your world
Starve the truth and go and feed him lies
Why does life crash us into things and then rip us away from them just as quickly? Why do I even care? I feel loved. Even though my girlfriend had to leave, I hold no feelings of anger or resentment toward her anymore (nor did I really, sometimes frustration, but nothing more). I still think she is great and an awesome friend. I just wish someone could figure out what the heck is wrong with me. Maybe after my vacation to Disneyland I will feel better. Who knows.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Where are we now?
Why do you have to complicate this life?
I'd go through hell to keep you by my side.
Nothing changes when its kept a secret.
Choose to run or fight to keep it.
Chorus
You say things won't ever change
I hope you remember me and feel the pain
Every time there's a stormy day
I hope I'm the cloud that brings the rain
Verse2
Your world is dark you feel alone
You lie awake staring at the phone
You call I hear but I'm not listening
You left first but now you miss me?
Verse 3
Where are we now? do we try to save it?
or keep it inside and be torn to pieces
with shattered bits of glass to fill the space
So many memories time can't erase
I'd go through hell to keep you by my side.
Nothing changes when its kept a secret.
Choose to run or fight to keep it.
Chorus
You say things won't ever change
I hope you remember me and feel the pain
Every time there's a stormy day
I hope I'm the cloud that brings the rain
Verse2
Your world is dark you feel alone
You lie awake staring at the phone
You call I hear but I'm not listening
You left first but now you miss me?
Verse 3
Where are we now? do we try to save it?
or keep it inside and be torn to pieces
with shattered bits of glass to fill the space
So many memories time can't erase
The world we live in
As I sit in my computer chair and think, I can't help but wonder where time goes. What we do in life has a major effect on everything and everyone around us. After watching Benjamin Button, one might start to appreciate the time they have on this earth. The world we live in is a strange place and only makes sense to those who are on top of it.
I just got my grades today and am only slightly disappointed. It wasn't the GPA I was hoping for. I look at the A I got in my music class and can't help but laugh. I almost never went, I failed the listening exam, and wrote a poor essay for the class. Somehow I got an A. I feel the same way when I look at the B that I got in my math class. I never even owned a text book and passed just fine. I went to class 8 times out of 30. Then I sit back and look at my History class and wonder what the heck went wrong. I didn't go to this one either, but it shows. I got a D+. That is about as close to failing as you can get. My grades brought my GPA for this semester to a total of 2.94 with a cumulative of 3.22. I am trying to figure out why the music class passed me when I did everything wrong, but my history class didn't even so much as consider the possibility of giving me a better grade. It just doesn't make sense.
I guess the world we live in says that success is measured by who you know and not what you know. So is going to college to obtain knowledge really worth the few thousand one spends each semester? I think it is an outrage that I paid 2 thousand dollars to either take classes that I could have slept through and passed, or take classes that even if I study I can still do poorly. What do the classes prove at the end of the day? Its all about if the teacher knows you and you permanently stick your lips to his/her butt. I guess I better pucker up if I am going to pass next semester's classes.
On a side note, I am slowly dying. Few know. Off and on I can't seem to catch my breath. Its like...I'm drowning from the inside. When I finally get the nerve to want to go to the doctor, the breathing problem seems to disappear. I'm I slowly going crazy and creating this feeling? I can run and jump and play and exercise just fine...but at night when I lie down and start to slowly close my eyes, the fluid starts to fill my lungs and I have to sit up and pray that I make it through the next day. Every breath tastes like iron...or blood. Maybe I am just nuts. Who knows. Maybe I'm working my lungs too hard. My breathing seems to be fine when I do personal tests...I can hold my breath for over a minute and a half despite the breathing problem. Drowning has always been the 2nd worse way I would want to die. The first is burning. I am sure with the life I lead that one of the 2 will be the way I go. I guess its better to go out in flames and glory than die a long lonely life. Sigh...
I just got my grades today and am only slightly disappointed. It wasn't the GPA I was hoping for. I look at the A I got in my music class and can't help but laugh. I almost never went, I failed the listening exam, and wrote a poor essay for the class. Somehow I got an A. I feel the same way when I look at the B that I got in my math class. I never even owned a text book and passed just fine. I went to class 8 times out of 30. Then I sit back and look at my History class and wonder what the heck went wrong. I didn't go to this one either, but it shows. I got a D+. That is about as close to failing as you can get. My grades brought my GPA for this semester to a total of 2.94 with a cumulative of 3.22. I am trying to figure out why the music class passed me when I did everything wrong, but my history class didn't even so much as consider the possibility of giving me a better grade. It just doesn't make sense.
I guess the world we live in says that success is measured by who you know and not what you know. So is going to college to obtain knowledge really worth the few thousand one spends each semester? I think it is an outrage that I paid 2 thousand dollars to either take classes that I could have slept through and passed, or take classes that even if I study I can still do poorly. What do the classes prove at the end of the day? Its all about if the teacher knows you and you permanently stick your lips to his/her butt. I guess I better pucker up if I am going to pass next semester's classes.
On a side note, I am slowly dying. Few know. Off and on I can't seem to catch my breath. Its like...I'm drowning from the inside. When I finally get the nerve to want to go to the doctor, the breathing problem seems to disappear. I'm I slowly going crazy and creating this feeling? I can run and jump and play and exercise just fine...but at night when I lie down and start to slowly close my eyes, the fluid starts to fill my lungs and I have to sit up and pray that I make it through the next day. Every breath tastes like iron...or blood. Maybe I am just nuts. Who knows. Maybe I'm working my lungs too hard. My breathing seems to be fine when I do personal tests...I can hold my breath for over a minute and a half despite the breathing problem. Drowning has always been the 2nd worse way I would want to die. The first is burning. I am sure with the life I lead that one of the 2 will be the way I go. I guess its better to go out in flames and glory than die a long lonely life. Sigh...
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Girls and Their NONSENSE!
The last few weeks have been kind of stressful on me. My girlfriend (EX-Girlfriend now) has gone back to Idaho to go to school. I hate the fact that she had to go away to school up there, but now I am kind of glad. She came back 2 weeks later for a visit and to go and see Wicked. When she had come home, we had a fun time for the first hour that we hung out. Fate turned on me in the end though. She decided that we needed to break up and couldn't give me a reason as to why. She just kept saying how she felt like we weren't meant for each other.
Fine...so she broke up with me. Big freaking deal. So anyway....
She texts me and tells me how there are so many things up in Idaho that remind her of me. I asked if she missed me, and she said that she did. I told her that it was her decision to break up with me, and she could change it at any time. Then she goes and uses the word Fickle on me. I had to look it up to figure out what the dang thing meant. Anyway....a few minutes later. I told her that I didn't care if she was somewhat fickle if it meant coming back to me. Then she starts saying how she is still fine with her decision and that we weren't meant to be.
Rewind!!! While on our breakup walk a few moments before we said our last goodbyes, I asked if it was something that I had done and could change in order to be with her. She said there wasn't anything that I had done, just that she wasn't ready for a serious relationship. I told her I had no plans on marrying her right away, but she still shied away. Anyway....
Fast Forward!!!
While texting me tonight, she starts saying how one of the main reasons she broke up with me was because our relationship had gotten too physical. I had asked her that while on our walk and said I could slow it down if she wanted. She said that wasn't it....Girls and their nonsense!!!
Just tell us the freaking truth and we will change. We would walk on water to make sure you girls are happy and feel right. Why do girls play these games? It doesn't make anysense. I just want someone who's gonna tell the truth when I ask her a question. It is easier to change when the truth is being told....anyway....
So then I send Becca a text that said "Oh well, it was fun while it lasted, as long as you're happy, I'm happy."
She texts back and says...
"Yes very fun...And I'm having a hard time letting go but I need to, you know what I mean? You're such a big part of my life."
How the heck do I know what you mean? If you are having a hard time letting go, it means you liked the relationship and the person you had it with...why do girls think in circles? This is Nonsense.
Fine...so she broke up with me. Big freaking deal. So anyway....
She texts me and tells me how there are so many things up in Idaho that remind her of me. I asked if she missed me, and she said that she did. I told her that it was her decision to break up with me, and she could change it at any time. Then she goes and uses the word Fickle on me. I had to look it up to figure out what the dang thing meant. Anyway....a few minutes later. I told her that I didn't care if she was somewhat fickle if it meant coming back to me. Then she starts saying how she is still fine with her decision and that we weren't meant to be.
Rewind!!! While on our breakup walk a few moments before we said our last goodbyes, I asked if it was something that I had done and could change in order to be with her. She said there wasn't anything that I had done, just that she wasn't ready for a serious relationship. I told her I had no plans on marrying her right away, but she still shied away. Anyway....
Fast Forward!!!
While texting me tonight, she starts saying how one of the main reasons she broke up with me was because our relationship had gotten too physical. I had asked her that while on our walk and said I could slow it down if she wanted. She said that wasn't it....Girls and their nonsense!!!
Just tell us the freaking truth and we will change. We would walk on water to make sure you girls are happy and feel right. Why do girls play these games? It doesn't make anysense. I just want someone who's gonna tell the truth when I ask her a question. It is easier to change when the truth is being told....anyway....
So then I send Becca a text that said "Oh well, it was fun while it lasted, as long as you're happy, I'm happy."
She texts back and says...
"Yes very fun...And I'm having a hard time letting go but I need to, you know what I mean? You're such a big part of my life."
How the heck do I know what you mean? If you are having a hard time letting go, it means you liked the relationship and the person you had it with...why do girls think in circles? This is Nonsense.
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